A prayer

I don't get this.As I was listening to the music in the cold,empty living room,I feel this...sadness coming over me all of a sudden.It was so overwhelming and it was such a powerful feeling that it almost drowned me just now.What's happening?

Lord,
I come to You now,with my heart heavily broken.Please lead me to You O God.Even though I told everyone that I'm doing perfectly Ok, but You know it better than I do O Lord. I'm still not feeling any better.I'm hurt,O Lord.My soul cries out to You.Lord,heal me.Guide me to the right path.I need you Lord.

Lord,
I'm not happy about what's going on around me.I'm regretting every actions that I took.I'm so tired of this life.I'm weary O Father God.Why do my life has to be this way? I can't hold on to it much longer.The reason that I'm still surviving now is because I still hold on to Your word.You promised me that You will never isolate or forsake me.I'm in desperate need of Your guidance,O Lord. Search my heart,tell me what should I do,O Lord,to continue with this life.I feel like a loser,a pathetic human being.Nothing seemed right for me.Each step I take is going to end up with tragedy.I do not want to hurt the people around me.Lord,I do not want them to suffer because of the sins I've commited.I do not want to wear another mask anymore.I can't pretend for much longer.I'm falling apart.

Lord,
Only You know what's happening to me.Only You can understand how I feel right now.I feel so betrayed,so frustrated,so bitter! Why,O Lord,when everything seemed to go right,it just has to go straight downhill for me?I'm in pain,Lord! I do not want to have high hopes for practically anything else,and watching it fall apart at the end of the day.I do not want it to be this way anymore.When will I forget about this?When will this come to a complete stop? Whenever I'm alone in quietness,my past will come back to haunt me.Lord,How can I overcome,how can I cope with this?Lord,please come to me,and heal me.O Lord!I'm at my wit's end.Show me a way Lord!

Lord,
I do not want to live my life to please anyone.I do not want to live my life for anyone else.I feel so empty.My life is hollow.I feel like I can't trust anyone any longer.After what she did to me,I often wake up in the middle of the night,having dreams about the betrayal she commited.SOmetimes I really feel like giving up on the whole thing,but I just couldn't.

Lord Jesus,
I know that I can put all my faith in You.Forgive me for I took back all the problems from You.Come to me,O Lord!Speak to me,tell me the right move.Hear this broken heart Lord,that cried out to You.Hear my cries. Heal this wound and help me not to remember anything from that incident,ever again,for I,did not give up on our friendship.You know the truth and You know it well.I can't bear hearing another accuse thrown in my way,for I did not do it! I did not do anything to hurt my friend,and yet,Lord, why is she doing this to me instead? I do not understand this! Help me Lord! Give me the strength to move on with my life,O Lord! I know that I can come to You and to depend anytime and anywhere.
Thank You Father.

In the mighty name of Jesus,
I pray,
AMEN!