Dear mom

Mama did you know
How I have spent less time with you?
Perhaps all I wanted was for you to see how
Successful I am in life.
I feel like a failure. I cannot face you..
I do not want to disappoint you..
Yet it's the exact thing that's going on.

Mama did you know?
I just want to make you proud
I just want you to enjoy life
I want you to be happy, sit back and relax
And it kills me that I cannot give you all that
Not just yet

Mama,
I'm sorry for being the way I am.
I'm sorry that I cannot be successful
I'm sorry that I still feel so lost
I'm sorry that I can't give you a good life